The thing is, I want to die all the time. It’s worse when I have anxiety, but it doesn’t go away. Like, I can forget for some time if I manage to overstimulate myself enough, but it just… it doesn’t go away. Ever. And it’s fucking exhausting, to fight against this every day, and if people ask how I am it’s to tell me I’m managing my life wrong and should do like this instead, or to consider their feelings and I’m just. so. tired.