Reaching June feels like such an achievement. Exams are finally over and a long summer awaits me; I should feel relieved, right? The trouble is summer brings with it a long holiday and I lose my main distraction, school. I feel apprehensive about what the holiday might bring. Usually it triggers another wave.
Also, recently I have lost a lot of confidence both in myself and my appearance. I feel disgusted when I look in the mirror. I see someone who isn’t skinny enough or pretty enough. This has happened before and it concerns me. My mind immediately starts reverting back to the world of extreme diets and lots of exercise. Maybe that wouldn’t be a bad thing? It might just be my brain replacing school with a new distraction.